and even though I have come through and am still going through a lot, the baby essentials from this help so much….
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Indeed, in our hearts we felt the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God…-2 Corinthians 1:9__________________________________________________
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We have all at one point felt a sense of fear. A sense of not knowing what was going to happen. When we become fearful of things, we loose trust in all. This verse is so true for Christians that face things we didn’t see coming. This week a lot of uncertain things happened in my own life. A lot of fear grabbed a hold of me and told me that I should give up. Not knowing where to live when you have to move in a month is scary. But I calmed myself, and I began to pray as I thought about the verse above.
As I continued to pray about where God wanted me to be this summer, a memory of my brother ran through my head and then another of my grandmother. To be honest I haven’t thought of them in months. They both are in Ohio, where I grew up. So I started thinking, maybe step by step God will guide me toward his will. I called my brother, and I am on a plane sometime after June 12th. God does provide, for those who hope in him.
You can say that you have asked God and that he hasn’t answered. But tell me this, have you truly obeyed what he has told you? Or have you followed your own desires because his didn’t agree with yours?
God provides for those who seek and hope in him.
Seeing that my desires and God’s don’t match up was hard. But then he showed me hope. I would have to say I was desperately in need of God’s love this week. And he brought my Bible to Lamentations 3: 22-32
22 Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. 23 They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. 24 I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” 25 The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him; 26 it is good to wait quietly for the salvation of the LORD. 27 It is good for a man to bear the yoke while he is young. 28 Let him sit alone in silence, for the LORD has laid it on him. 29 Let him bury his face in the dust— there may yet be hope. 30 Let him offer his cheek to one who would strike him, and let him be filled with disgrace. 31 For men are not cast off by the Lord forever.32 Though he brings grief, he will show compassion, so great is his unfailing love.
You see, all this time I wasn’t trusting in my magnificent God. I only doubted. I wasn’t seeing how his will could make me hurt. I was impatient, out of hope, and afraid. Fear had taken over. But you see God says THOUGH HE BRINGS GRIEF, HE WILL SHOW COMPASSION.
We go through tough times because those are the times when we can’t rely on ourselves, but only on God. That when we feel afraid, we know that God sees the end of our trials, and we will stand up under temptations because God has promised that he will NEVER bring us into a point where we cannot overcome temptations.
What are you going through right now? Where is God asking you to trust him? I know I am going through a lot, but I am finding hope in my Creator. Maybe your not saved. You don’t know how to trust God. The Bible says to trust in God we must be an image of this verse; “That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved.” Trust in your Creator, he formed your heart. Who else is able to understand it?
“I don’t think there is an explanation. My belief in Jesus did not seem rational or scientific, and yet there was nothing I could do to seperate myself from this belief. I think a lot of people are looking for something rational, believing all things that were true were rational. But that isn’t the case. Love, for example, is a true emotion, but it is not rational. What I mean is, people actually feel it. I have been in love, plenty of people have been in love, yet love cannot be proved scientifially. Neither can beauty. Light cannot be proved scientifially, and yet we all believe in light and by light see all things. There are plenty of things that are true that don’t make any sense. I think one of the problems many have is they want God to make sense. He doesn’t. He will make no more sense to me than I will make sense to an ant.”
“I’m here still. I wish you would crawl into my arms. I want so badly to hold your beautiful hands and feet and body. My creation, you, are so beautiful. No man could ever fathom the love I have for every piece of you. Your soul will one day never sieze to praise me in heaven, and I will rejoice that you see Truth finally. Though on earth you forgot I was here, and that I died to save you so that the parties you attend, satans language that comes from the mouth I gave to you, and the sending of alcohol down your throat and drugs in your lungs and sexual immorality -though your body is not yours, it is I, the holy temple that lives inside of you- would not allow you to perish, but to be forgiven and brought to heaven so I can love you. I just wish that the free will I have gifted to you would be used to glorify me in your lives so the people who do all the sins you have chosen also, may be saved. You are a chosen one, my love… my beautiful, my peace, my number one… I cry next to you while you cry. I laugh with you when you laugh. I am happy when you can see me and what I’ve done. I am Patience, and I will wait for you to crawl to my arms. I am a forgiving God, sweet love. Do not fear coming back to me. I love you.”
